GATE WAY TO HAVEN..

 That was the day when I lost hope from every were .whatever to end up this life.It was life my life was finished before starting..

I thought now I grown up.. I got my professional work. Now I can start my world as I can...but ..yes BUT is always there ..this this word will teach lot of this ..it is become uninvited  teacher.. we all don't want this "BUT" to use but it comes .but to be used with strong gut..

So as this but came in my life I got one gate ..

Where there was written Gate to haven.. I was like.. in this world were I was seeing only darken side of my life .is there a gate which goes to haven? Ohh that's great .let's see..

I went  inside..there was one brother.. he said I will start u the session ..I said yes...

He started.. he said you need lot of strength to listen it..because after listening you will not be as before..your whole prospective of seeing this world will change...

There are only to things in this world... one is Real..other is Reel...

So when you will come to know what is real...and what  the life which  you where experiencing tull today  was reel..!  OMG

I was suddenly stunt..So he said  you have a choice..  Are you interested in knowing the truth.. or you you are happy in reel..world..

I was  like..in between the bridge.. because I came here to get  ride of the world where was. Living..and  also had the curiosity  to know what is this real world..

But  the reality may  not be the illusion.. But a very persist one..  The same way in bhagawat geeta ..it said.. the one who will cross the Maya world.. only he can get me.. This is all because you are seeing this world through this body..your existing eye..

Once you realise the secret of inner eye.  You can see the real world.. "BUT"  again it came..

If you realise the secret you can't go back to the old world..

I was scared..  The brother said Do you like to get awareness about the real world and have beutifull life.? Or you are ok with the old world which is not at all real.. ohh God. My heart rate..increased ..I asked what I m seeing from this eye .every this is my illusion?..

He said yes... but this is not the exchange of wordings.. it is not much easy as you think..

It is all about the innerworld.. you need to realise it..it takes time.. and you need lot of courage  to understand....it's not that easy to understand..

You have a choice are you interested  to walk in the old life which is not at all real..it's full of reel.Or you have the courage to face the reality and get the authority on yourself and lead the life by understand ing the real secret of it..

He said i will guve you the time.. take your own time and come tomorrow.. I will not force you..

I came home...i was totally silent..where was stopped thinking about my life.. i started thinking on it.. i  was shoked my his words that what is happened till now was owned my ne with illusion?  Ohh God..that was little bit scary..

It was the situation of Arjun..where srikrishna said .choice is yours ..you can run from the bettle or except the truth of universe..

As the date changed .I thought of going to the same gate.. where it was written Gate way to Haven ..

Because Arjuna stood there,  and own the  bettle..

Next day morng the same brother was standing there.. he welcomed  me and started the session..

He said are you ready to hear the truth? I with casually  said yes..

He said it's not that much easy as you are responding.. I said why?

He said truth will always be very scary...For .excepting it  you need strong Gut..because leaving in illusion is very very easy.. All are leaving in it..but when you come to know  the reality is totally opposite to that..then you loose your control.. And this is the Gate . Which once you open. You can't close it.. And once you come cme to know the reality. You will not me you as before..because all the secret will come out..All the illusion will  vanish..it's very tough to know ..That the branch was holding till today as my strong support..it s not real.. that is why every one like to  leave in illusion..

When the brother came to know that I m not leaving this place till I get the truth..

He started. He said you are not a body, nor doctor, nor female, nor the name the people call you?  

Omg ..the first line only  shakend  me..then who am '  I '    

He said you are the energy who is holding this whole body like the  dress hanging on screw..

My heart rate increased..he said  you are not mind which changes every second, you are not body which change day by day..you are the soul the energy who will not die.. 

I was totally shakened..  he said be ready to hear one more reality.. I was holding my both the hands and  preparing myself  strong to listen the truth of this universe...the time where even Arjun was shakened. 

He said now you are very near to God ..He is just near to you ..because you are the truth the truth is just beside you..now every truth will come to you and every think will be open infront of you like OPEN BOOK.. So by reading it .. Don't be scared..Because as I told you earlier  all illusion will vanish and truth automatically come and stand infront of you..So face  bravely.. and with lion heart.. 

After knowing all the truth you will not be as you were before..you will change totally.. The incidences happening in the life will be like a game.. all 

But if you go back.. you won't get such beutiful opportunity.. 

The brother continued ..And said till today you were inside cage..of this body..As you were doing your routines .doing what you what ..and thinking that I m a free bird..haha.'.BUT '  not ..you were in cage of your body..you were contrlef my your old habits. Your so  called cultures, by society,  So on..As the lion gets food, space to walk.. but it has the limitations even by the gaurd in the cage.. 

But now listen to this.. which will make you more scarry..

I said what ??

He said yes ..when this world come to know that you know the truth...they will not allow you to leave peacefully..

I was surprised..I said .why ? What's the problem to them.

He said those who realise the truth of universe they think it's very  harmful for them..because such  souls will not afraid of any thing..not depend on any materestic things..this will  make them insecure..  There are lot af examples for this .in every decades...So think on it .this path is very difficult.. This world will not allow you to go out of their cage..it's totally opposite direction..

You will loose your old personality, old habits, old illusions, old fear, old insecure feelings..

You become very strong. You become the owner of your body. Your habits..you  won't be dependent on your old relations, you become very very strong in total universe.. like next to God..

This was not digesting to me...the brother came to know with my expression.. he  said ..Once again you take your time..if you think whatever  situation comes.. whatever be the opposition. I will face and except the reality. I m ready to face the world then you come..

I came back home.. but he was right.. I was not like before..I had clear picture...I was experiencing every bit of my life.. same as I heard from him..

Then I thought no I can't leave in this imagery world.. when I know my surrounding mith.. I can't leave in this cage..in old barrier. Leading the life like closed eyes..

No...no.....I need freedom from this illusion world ..I was knowing it's a very tough journey..  but it was the path of truth..it was the only path to reach the God who is truth..every thing was clear to me..I was totally change. There was spark in my eyes.. I was feeling very strengthen.. I was feeling very different from this world.. I was so much happy.. that only I m knowing the secret of real happiness..wow...

It's so amazing experience...

Again next day I went ..enter the Gate..The brother welcomed me with the smile and said..you are very brave woman.. I was knowing, you will come definitely..

I got more strength from his words..

He started his session.. he said now your mind is ready to deal with the truth..

I was little bit comfortable..

He said .now you have to concentrate on your energy.. and pick up the weakness you have. Check it.. mark it..it is the one who is not allowing you to go forward..  it is making you to be in limitations till your body..means you don't have permission to do beyond your body...what ever you what to do.. before that you need to ask the permission to your body..

So the first enimy will be your body.. it will not give you full freedom..so think on it.. you  ready want to continue this journey?

I said yes.. then he said as I told you earlier it's not the magic of words.. it's not the story of some one..it's all about experiencing..if you take it lightly and go home.. Again you become..as before.. that is an ordinary  woman..

I said strongly.. no.. it's my earge ..I m very much thursty.. to know the truth.. feel the truth.. now no more I can leave blindly in in this illusionary world..

I want to become extra ordinary ..super power woman..

Then he said ok.. from today your practicals starts..

Today you need to go and sit in calm place..where there is no any disturbance..

And as your self. ..who am. I' " till you get answer don't come..if your mind says you are body.. then ask it. If my body burns where I go..so lot of questions u need to ask yourself till you get the answer ..ok....I went home..

Yes the brother was right .I saw myself in the mirror ..my first illusion was broken down..I was thinking that I m body. But from child hood it has changed a lot. And still it is going to chance and one or other day I will definitely leave this body..omg.. really it's very scary to except the truth..I started thinking that I m the mind... but was knowing the answer. No I m not..yes ..this was the first illusion..ohh ohh.. how can it possible..every thing I was thinking  real was illusion..I m the truth. The soul. The energy.. very true.. but I can't see with my two eyes.. only I feel it..I m the king of this body.. this was my second truth..in such way there were unlimited truth I started getting ..I started feeling..I decided..  no have to ho in depth and my journey should me full of truth..

Again I went next day with more confidence. And like I achieved something my knowing myself..

The brother started his session and said.. I thought today you won't come.. because 60% of the people stop here..because it's very tough job to know myself.. feel myself who am "  I "

Now you can ho for next session..now you have explored your energy.. slowly you are comng out of your cage.. 

He  was right.. I was feeling like free bird.. comng out of my own body..this happiness was not gift from my body.. or other body..

This happiness is owned  by me .myself .freedom feeling.. feeling like me the star flying in the sky..lighening with other stars in the sky..

He said today you need to strength more.. concentrate on yourself.. because first time you are seeing yourself ...take some more time.. because tomorrow I m showing you one more truth. Which is kept secretly from this world..for that you need more and more strength...don't be afraid..   if you feel to stop this session will stop he said..

It was like srikrishna was reminding Arjuna that .here you don't need your body strength ..you need inner strength to except the truth of universe which is totally opposite to what you where assuming till today..so if you want still you can run away from this field..

Mine was also the same situation..

Next day brother started the session.. he said now slowly you start  going inside your inner world.. and let me know how you are feeling.. this must  be done infront of me..

Because it's more scary then what you did yastarday....I started sweating..but again made my mind..and  closed my eyes and stared my inner journey..  it was full of dark..I was scared. Thought to open my eyes.. but still controlled and continued my journey.. it was very silent but was not comfortable ...slowly there was nice of crying, pain, trauma, etc.. I was feeling to open my eyes but still controlled.. 

The bother said it's nothing..it's all your own thoughts. You have created it.. so just observe it.. don't stop it.. it will not stay.. it will move ..don't worry..I was like ok..I was  thinking  oh my god .  So much  of  garbage I was holding till today..but as he said I just became the observer.. and consoled myself..I m  on the  right path.. definitely I will come out of it..

Again the brother said if you have the courage to see the truth.. you come..there is no force..I said ok..

Really it was very very scary world inside..but the curiosity of knowing truth made me to foot at the same gate..that was Gate way to Haven.. 

Next day brother was more happy to see me..he said only 10% of the people come again ..After knowing the truth of themselves.. I smiled  at him and started the session..

 Again I closed my eyes and started my inner journey.. I saw a board ..something was written om it.. when you see me you will loose yourself.. and when you loose yourself. Then only u can get  me. ..I was very much afraid ..but still thought to go inside ..yes it's true.. I saw myself ..an energy the star the soul..all my fear was. Vanished I was very much happy to see myself in my originality....I love myself..  I m most powerful creation  in this world..I crossed the barrier or gate  of death and birth..this height is more huge then Himalaya. Peek point..haha..

Hmm.. it was time up..I returned home.. I was totally changed.. I was coming from the same route as before.. but I was feeling like I m walking in the sky.. I m not belonging to this old world.. my world has totally changed..I was extra ordinary person..  like comng from different magic world...

Then it became habit for me.. sitting in calm place traveling I'm my inner world. Observing my thoughts.. slowly slowly there were changes in my thoughts.. which of  very soothing feelings..

But one day.. as was closing my eyes and went in my inside world...I saw some  sparkling light which is comng to me ..slowly slowly it started converting in some picture which was looking like me..yes it was my aura.. I m now eble to see my aura clearly ..it looks like Angel...very happy. Powerfully Angel.. who has the power to sooth others ..  we both were face to face..of each other..

Like all old negativity leaving and welcoming the most pure, superpower Angel..The truth..

For a second I was happy like I reached the goal..but in within a second  afraid .that I don't have much strength to me stable ..in this higher state.. I may go back to the old world ..with lot of negativity.. can I sustain in this stage.?  Is it possible for me? Ohh no..again the same fear started..

Again remembered the words of bhagawat geeta.. one who sustain in this path.. who realise his   energy  is infinity ..only he can see the power of infinity..uff again I chasesd myself and closed the  eyes and started   journey.. 

I saw there were  lot of colorfully lights..full of energy surrounding me.. all were resembling me.. ohh it's me with different energy...serving others.. I was surprised..  really I have so much of different different powers?  Unbelievable..now my confidence level was increased..I was the lucky star in this universal..I have crossed many gates..But still there were changes. But now  they are in different way.. now I realised. They are coming to me to help me.. to make me more strong and helping me to go more near to the truth..about myself...yes now I came to know why Shrikrishna said.. know yourself ..you are not what you were thinking about yourself..you are the energy ..you are infinity of this infinity  universe...realise your powers and strength...you are the master of yourself..stimulate your inner energy.. 

Now it was time to know the supreme power..it was not much easy...for that I need more strength..I need more strength to stand infront of him..he is the truth..so till completely I realise the truth of myself.. and delete all my negatively .I can't reach him.. again I recollected the words of  bhagawat geeta that when you become equal to me then only your mind will understand me..

Ohh great.. I never dream of it..I really crossed all those Gates? Now I m very near to reach the God..?

Next day again the inner journey started..  now there was not much struggle to open the new doors of truth...The new infinity light sparkled infront of me it slowly came near me and said.. now you have crossed  all tough challenging and very near to the truth...you can see me only when you come out of all smallest of false illusion from your mind...The light was just infront of me with lots of love, joy and happiness.. I was feeling like he knows all my weakness. All my hurdles which kept me  away from this truth...ohh I m so glad ...but ..again he said here ..to you get lots of different exams and definitely you will cross those hardles..

Yes now I started enjoying every step of my life.. now I realised what ever exams are comng  defiantly it is taking me very near to the truth.. so I was  ready to except the challenges.. 

Yes now I crossed all those negetive habits .fear, insecurity, illusions...now it's totally new journey new challenges which is not limited to this body, habits, world,, I m the truth, energy, belonging to infinity..I crossed all the boundaries which kept me in cage of old believe system.my happiness is not limited to this body.orthis world.. it's way from these illusion.

I saw a garden of haven  with beutiful flowers .a light music of my success.. 

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